I hate leaving Ontario.  Especially after a lovely 10 days spent with friends and family.  Did I mention David lives there now?

I have to remind myself that it’s my decision completely to live and work in Vancouver.  I COULD go home whenever I wanted… I have the freedom to do so!

Staying here and riding this out will set me up for my future.  I have to remember that it’s better to think long term than short term. 

Right now, my feelings and emotions are telling me to give myself short term rewards, to pack up and leave, so that I can feel more comfortable and ‘okay’.

My logic and rationality, however, tells me that this will be worth it, that you ARE okay, and that ‘comfortable’ is your own choice and perspective.

Who can say that they were successful by up and quitting? Not a lot, I’m sure.

My heart desires to be home, and I know one day I will be.  But this short term pain WILL produce long term gain—as long as I stick with it, and stay strong.

And the longer I stay at it, the stronger I will become, and the better life I’ll have for it.

Sigh.